so maybe i hate him but i forgot why and remembered just the love. i have feelings for him. i want to shatter his heart but i want to watch the sun set on the small town with him. " its the way that he makes you cry its the way that he's in your mind its the way that he makes you fall in love". my friends are failing to make me feel okay, and its all i want. we can be ambitious unless your talking about love.
tonight lift my eyes make me smile let me feel. make me envy make me laugh make me cry. i am desperate to make sense of my feelingsor maybe just to feel. my own company is safest but when is it time to take a chance, and what happens if all the hand that reach out get chopped off? im cryin to clear my mind or fill it with construction and make it speak and charm. how can anyone belive what they read if they write there own lines that turn to lies within a few days

i think im less of an emergancy and more for a hospice or a 2 week long observation patient unpredictable and slightly unstable but i dont need work right now- just the acess to the icu if i need to be rushed away

i'm going to take the time to watch the sunset not out of my window but where i can feel the last few moments of warmth i could write this forever but i cant spend forever as they are pulling me away~ i dont want to speak these words
you make me smile
i fucking need you
xo