this is how

realisation that i'm not alive
itchy eyes, silver tear tracked lines
memories faded faster than a few fucking photographs
nothing but the hollowness inside
caffeen induced sickness
sleepless induced comas
forgotten smiles
wasted lies
im through making attempts
i'm not going to make an attempt
i dont fucking care
i know im not alive
nothing but early hour numbness
communications faded and broken down
sweat and breathlessness
reverberating nightmares
strobe light flashing darkeness
of cold nights with starless skys
rain litter atmosphere
just to spark the shivering of dropped body heat
whispering quietnessi forgot to lie
tunneling failure
loss of fucking control
everythings empty
i'm not fucking alive
xo