read this ?

i said i'd never leave, never let go, always be there, always love you
well it wasnt a lie
it was sincere at the time
but if someone changes so fucking much how can you keep the same promises
and to be perfectly honest youd never notice anything anyway
and i kind of hate you for everything
but i hate it more that you wont listen
you dont care what anyone with genuine concern says
i cant fucking do it
i actually am so close to giving up. i never thought id say it
i hate what youve become more than you do.
soemday i wont even hate it , it will be nothing
but it means nothing to you becuase all you feel about anything realistic is nothing

thank you for being the one that actually makes me fight to stay awake late at night
thank you for being the reason i'm loosing my fear of sanity
thank you for not being scared
thank you for making me smile
thank you for the lack of turbulence
thank you for this security
thank you for the unconventionalism


thank you for soaking up my emotion
thank you for putting up with me
thank you for letting me lie on you

thank you for making me laugh
thank you for letting me sit with you
thank you for letting me be a bitch
thank you for taking the piss
thank you for staying home

thank you for sharing umbrellas
thank you for sharing the cold
thank you for being a lunatic

thank you for your hugs
thank you early mornings
thank you for shaking your head
thank you for shouting at me

thank you for the feeling of control
thank you for feeling necessary
thank you for your smiles
thank you for calming down

thank you
xo