i hate

how nothing is the same as it was a while back
i have nothing that i can truely count on as knowing
or recognising
or feeling safe in
and truth be told it scares the shit out of me
how people can change so much
tastes can change so much
opinions and beliefs can change so much

is it so fucking wrong that i want to start everything over again
cause if i can introduce myself as a new person
not the person that carries all old mistakes, regrets and memories
something will have changed
its will just be different, the truth as it is now
constistant
i can learn to live a new way
how i want now
blowing your face up syndrome baby
you can make up your past for all i care dollface
'hi i used to be [insert lie]'
as long as the present is right
the futures gonna fit in the end
and you can keep running every time somehting changes
to spare your self from pretending
and explaining
moving on
and letting go
xo