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theres one thing i need you to know:
no matter how close you hold someone
with the rain entangeling your hair, tears mixing in contrastingly warm against the equally stinging cold rain
regardless of how ever many times you whisper 'i love you' 'i'll never let go' reassurances under baited breath
hands clutching arms, waists and any available body part
it only lasts as long as the alcohol baby
the things that truely matter, that stick are the things you never share
how secretly you ponder ever word they ever wrote
you cry at night cause youre so daym scared, and you know your the only one
when youve said something it is oh so easy to forget, youve given it to someone else partitioned and divided the weight and the memorys as evidence, its less weight to forget.
yet we always share the good things
keep secret what we are ashamed of
scream what we cant take any more

and yes one night we find our selfs in a darkened graphitied alley
broken breath, promises that you wont promise
reassurance
it will go unmentioned but we meant every single fuck word
i hold myself to it
i may never say anymore ill never let go
but i love you for everything and anything you are
and i just hope you read this
even if you dont, this is my contract

and just for the only person who will read this


sugar that morning you thought you ripped me away from sleep
but darling you were wrong
you tore away so much more
a hope
a fear
and here is to not breathing for one more year

manipulation at its finest...with the best intention

clingingontomaybeliftyouhigher
ly
xo