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not even gonna try to claim i'm all that different. in fact i'm going to do the oposite. yeah i'm pretty much the same as every other real fan. but most fans would travel halway across their country/state/whatever to get to a show. theyd travel as far as they could if it wasnt for other commitments, parents or money.i think im gonna try to stop now because im not even sure i know what i'm getting at here.
. my maths teacher said 'everything seems big in a teenagers life'.thats what people think of teenagers. but in this case it wasnt. its the sort of thing you read/hear about and think fucking hell.
and when it happens that close to you you get scared.that what i was, scared. of course i felt everything that everyone else feels when something goes wrong for someone.
but the world is a fucking scary place. adults dont think we know it yet.
but we could know more. think slow motion. adults are more sheltered than kids. it happens to us more than them. their own protection shelters them, they arnt in school witnessing bullying and everything else. they arnt the ones doing drugs at partys[okay before i carry on this i the majority] they arent the ones getting comments shouted at them if they walk down the street. whatever they wear, either for dressing strange. or old men hitting on them. they arnt the ones laying down with something they feel new things for someone and doing new things. they are shocked at how the world is in the news but it happens every fucking day. adults arent experiencing it now[on the whole] every day things that shock them.that they want to protect us from. they have either forgot or things have changed. for example video ratings music etc. what we are the ones who are gonna fuck someone new soon if they havnt already we are more likly to try drugs now or soon. we swear. we arent always as sensitive to violence. i know not all of this is strictly techniqualy true and there are many execptions and things.but seriously i didnt start of with the intention to write this, but it came to me, and i felt it was important.