the world feels like its dragging on so slowly your trapped in the times youd rather skip through. yet your rushing through everymoment sedated. youd rather feel nothing than let any feelings hurt you. youd rather skip everything important and miss out than let anything effect you. and to be perfectly honest you'll have one day where everythings right. your aware of the weather and how shit it is, how the wind is thrown at you and it sinks into your skin. how the air makes your eyes dry up and water all at the same time.your actually invincible. yet its the one time all week where you actually smile.and its voluntary, and you actually dont care about the things that have been circulating all around your conciousness, they just slip away... and everything is going so fast but your involved every second has so much depth and detail. but you loose the memories. one night youll miss that day and theres nothing you can truely hold onto. theres no commitment or any hints of promises. and when that night comes youll feel so alone. youll shake for hours. everything slows down. there are the people who used to comfort you, reassure you and even hold you and they make you wanna turn around and walk away and loose all composure. theres the ones who used to rely on you, to a certain extent, they distance themselfs so far away you have a huge void to think about unimportant mindless factors. and the ones who were guarenteed to make you smile, make you feel at home. they change so much your just an annoying old friend who doesnt want to be disrespectful. but maybe your the one whos changed.
but you feel so alone
"power corrupts ....aboslute power corrupts absoultly"
there will never be an answer. thats the one thing i can promise you. you might as well give up trying. {i might die for you, but that doesnt mean im gonna live for you}

you'll get off that train into a blank canvas. its not empty but its so clear, yet so distorted. they're still looking at you. but they are taking huge steps away.
they arent getting any smaller

this is the__________era
for real
xo