lateral thinking i guess

i think the thing thats always there is that they're always a fucking train wreck. a car crash. a burnt out engine on a plane. a sinking ship with no lifeboats. anything for fucking drama really. maybe my life lacks it so much that i cling onto anything and anyone thatgives me some dramatic distraction to focus on. im a sucker for drama, im a sucker for a sweet talker. anything so poetic...so tragic..so much poetic tragedie.
and for a few hours we both know that all we want is to be in someones arms, or to hold someone tight.threw those hours when then sky turns from blue to red to black. but society teaches us to fuck that and numb our beating hearts with sweat and rhymn.only a few are left with cadence from creativity
fucking decadence from the view from our bedroom window at 5 oclock in winter, west facing thankyouverymuch.fucking self indulgence from the deep contrast of a bonfire reflecting off of the glinting ocean onto the pitch black broken by sparkling stars.
suburbial sunrise onto lonely eyes.the one last fragement of hope left in the hearts of children and 'staying together for the kids' in the minds of their parents. dont give me that bullshit of 'the land of hope and glory' or 'the city of angels'. the smiles come from a fix of prozac,and painkillers to dullen a hangover. they look down at the discouraged faces of the suffering with hypocritical empathy. fuck that the camera always lies.
despondancy raging through the air sinking through the mouths and lungs of all that cling onto life.only to come out as faked words or half hearted songs.
you are the nation of manufactured bullshitters who over look what money cant buy. and that a low carb and high protein diet, isnt helping to save the world. the people who are supposed to be economically aware and competent spending money that could provide for a child for months on a dogs fucking collar. tell me you really care about stopping the wars or world peace. tell me that one fucking time.
its never going to leave me but its only haunting you. one more line to string together the minds of a nation. one more line to discourage the world. dont pretend that fear doesnt exist in your teenagers heart. dont suggest we arent angry for the things we used to support. dont even tell me one time that life wasnt better with naivety.
illneverfuckingletgo
honestly
xo