need two more words

i only ever dream, on the borderline of sleep.
winter wasting our teenage years
took the innocence with tears
i never want to see, the leaves shed their trees
stroke your fractured fingertips
kiss thoose iron bolted lips
he will always cry , under her glassy tides
fumbled wishes of tonight
feel it ticking till its bright

how did the colours come so blinding
taking the pathway to where your staning
feel the weather burn your wind dried eyes
its over till you break through all the lies

he stood quiet alone hiding in a corridoor
oblivious to her lazer gaze
she tries to find the perfect phase
notted bleached dipped hair, bitten finger nails
he tips the world to sea
he held that crumbled apple key
dressed to chnge the minds, of girls in '65
infinite tunnels echo madness
his body shakes off sadness
xo

tbc

i'd like to start love over
day dreams drifting on musical highs
spent nights on makeshift beds
makeshift hearts under bright stars
his dull eyes reflecting half smiles
bite lips, soak the saline
he always looks like hes failing
tbc still

manchester actually has nothern downpour

theres no way this light shower can wash much away
more than those innocent beds with sundried charm
or the lost in charm smiles sunlight wont forget
its hard to create a fantasy world when you cant think of a place you want ot be apart from the ever uinpossible steel strings
a distant coastline your feet paced yuear ago the ennlightening muse, awoking inner sense a deeper despiration than youd ever realise
desolate grassland, missing northern countryside
a lost sheep in your own hometown trainride
a trackling river meeting the destructive ocean
no wiser[wider] than that thin red line you grew to know
let me loose the morning they did nothing for me
except fill my lifeless bopdy with cafeen
spendt mornings gazing over little brick houses
a network of orange streetlight glow
channels of tarmac paths interwinding
the night life ford fiestas stealing adventures
i refuse to except its just your imaginations story
the sun begins to take over the opening of my eyes
instantaneous drousiness why not smile
sticky hands working for passable perfection
adult attitude left snow untouched untill summer


i spent my life chasing the moon only to find the sun wont sotp rising the ocean wont stop crashing the stars wont stop shining

but whats so special about the rain anyway except the way it brightens your eyes , and makes your hair messy that way..
except it make me feel, expect well
xo

well i guess this si learning

a smirking boy
graces the room glancing quickly, to the abandoned bar
stumbling girls, falling over crushed blown daydreams
flash a smile just to get an intoxicating gulp
oh come on did you ever really feel this enchanting boy possesed more than just a collected charm
the room is slipping like the shinning in your eyes oh the magics fading faster
your lips pressed tightly, the conceitment always pushing through
crowds jumping, faster than your heart could ever need to beat
eats your stomach the lining slowly wilting like the acid fourteen
parisital feeding at the young girls mind
dampened brown eyes your past will always flood right back
the days you werent superior praying for acceptance of a figures heart
with a wink you''l feel the pain and pressure stealing your memories style
xo

monkey ?

unopen hearts failing to open insecurities
standstills of breaking silences
the worlds that drip from injected lips, cracked
his eyes stick open refusal of the etched smiles
metamophasised promises of thanks
vivid imagery he burns into a heart
send me to sleep without feeling sunken
under the finger crashing waves
death of his saviour nature
a bound book of broken dreams snapped shut, just in sight
sharp like sharded ruby glass with a liquid
like flow, silver reflections between reflections
fingers searching for the point that carries it away
his eyes wince from behind filtering curtains
whos eyes were those? a playback of painful memory
on slanted writing and butter coated words
such glass edged wit, affection from yours truely
to try and sew a vein or an undepicted edge
make a vow to chance things for me
if he smiled for me i could master one too
roughened gritty picture perfected rememberings
xo

sorry for wanting this

just make it as surreal as possible if i can believe its something from a story. that it doesnt exist well then i cant fuck it up as bad. or at least if it all goes to hell. well it practically wasnt there to begin with so loosing it wont hurt as bad. sing it for me. or make it seem like one of those stories we used to read. anything that can fall apart as easily as the silence at the end of the song or the last page in a book. make it so the feelings are only temporary. superficial even. anything phantasmagoric. anything but love. because it will sting but only for a few minutes.
xo

minus the sleeping

he wears black when the sun shinning onto his artifically coloured hair
and likes to contrast in bright colours, blinding to eyes, when the rain is relentless

the girl she dances to his charm
the love we gave up on wanting just to feel alive
caught off guard, crying , sinking, shaking , smiling
just for the moon clinging onto lifes nightmares
lifeboat trainstops, 1:40 just to make it through
the birds falling, a friends who throws hearts
tryed in desperation, unlikely promises in time
yoghurt coated raisins, people watching ; life
compassionate nature: self doubt procrastination
wind blown through curly hair
dropped senses wishing for your wanting gase
awkward arms, strangling breaths and killing time

and he sees her fingers shattered
in her voice he hears the fractures
from the heart she wont abandon
the blood begins to fade

painless affliction
the way our veins sink ever deeper
a young girl singing softly at night
the way a mothers anger
can tip us that bit further
the melodic whispering mocking
but can you smile forever
at least give me one nights last starlight
the times you sit in fields
sweetly contemplating infactuation
the dreams you never wanted
the passion that lacks the company
your minds soft drifting harmony
you werent made for childrens longing
sinners hatred the time it wouldnt leave you smiling
ghosting over lustless smiles
chipped teeth framing a plesant heart
the one you needed to love
fragile borders, creeping slowly evr down
but will you laugh tonight
we're always falling every day every time
can you try to feel a thing

xo