what if everyone feels the exacct same pain, but some people can just deal with itwhat if everyone is depressed or euphoric but some people are just strongerthen the weak just dont wish to be strong?and if i cant breathe, theres nothing to set a pace off of itbreathe with melisten to my heartbeatfeel my pulseall the vital signs nothing to compare and replicatewould you rather detatch yourself from everything and have nothing including no sorrowor suffer to have anythingself medication- oh too common amoungst thoose who lack the anethesis of scar tissuesarcasm off thoose who cant tell the truthif the brain creates what we feel cant it undo it?and this time as your sat under that very same tree...well the trees over grown the leaves all collected at the base in a soggy muddy mess. theres fire licking the outside of your skin, yet youve become such a carcass that the heat doesnt make you look away from your feetyouve yet to learn our cathartic guilty pleasuresyou put more and more and more itno your mind and body the opposite of a malnurished state. you rot from the indulgence of missfortune. not the lack of fullfillment.now lets re set thew scenethis time we're on a hilltop/ cliffface any point fo life or death. you can see death yet escape to keep going. this time we're together im not simply seeing you.we sit so close yet not touching in the same way that our feet are dangleing over into death, yet the danger is even more.the certaintly of death or a touch sparking eternal attacthment.the wind only adds to the danger becuase if it picks up it could throw us over the edge. in a similar way to a note that is lying unead in your back pocket. you discover it now , before im gone forever and it wi,ll push us into attatchmentand if we did die...but together it wouldnt be so bad. neither of us would even know.your dirty black car is only a few meters away from our spot. i lie back trying to ignore my irregular beating.'i dare you' i said a sparkle in my eye.'we dont even care'


i migth stop posting here i have a livejournal instead
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