all i know is i love you too much to leave you.







but i want to, desperately

You hurt me so much you cut through the seretonin that is filling my brain.

You said it's just one day after another. You just have to get through one day. And make the next one worthwhile.
But it's not one day. It's one continuous movement screaming for what you need. I need your flesh on mine. I need to feel you

paranoia

i am without love
you're there, fleeting and thin
holding and folding
you're touching me
brushing
past
and flowing flowing
alone
i'm drunk, and scared
fushion and confusion
pain and pills
i miss your warmth
i miss the way you'd stroke my back absently
absentee
i miss how you'd look at me
and want me
i miss how it was good

I feel like I'm hurtling through space being flung around from place to place,empty. I'm not going home. Home is where you fuck me; feeling closer to life than anything. Where I feel. And everything is golden and shines, it's blurry and fast and safe. Yopure where the bleakness ends, but where it starts.

i have been abandoned
the colour slowly dissolves
and filter and fade
you stole the spark
the fire and burning
now i fall into a mould
of slate, black hard
cancerous cunt

'But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.'

'You are the one solid spaces stand upon, envious'

i want to touch you